right now i have written this..

to feel the things that i feel now
to smile that same way that i have totally forgotten
the confusion goes away and a plan is written
with words that are filled with love, hope and desire
to feel the tightly folded note in my pocket
material evidence of
the understanding and certainty that washes over me
with every deep breath and every tear that i still cry
i didn't think i was to
feel these things that i feel now.