thanks for the computer help!

thanks for making me cry
i know that was not your intention
so over a year later, it still hurts
it stings, and it infurates
i know i fucked up!
you did too!
we never moved passed that and it ate us alive
or just me.
you weren't some kind of god damn saint always there and comforting
you were you and yes, i do know you.
i would have stayed away the first time if i didn't.
and i still love you, call you my family, and have your last name.
but we've been moving on passed this.
have to and will.

i don't think that
we will laugh about this years from now
maybe it will still hurt.