dooooooooooooo sommmthinnnnnnnnnnnnnng....

so that's all you are going to do, sleep? every single time i talk to you on the phone, i have woken you up and when i come home, you are taking a nap on the couch. i understand life is tiring, but really? is everything ok? are you not telling me something?
or is it just that you like to sleep.
wake up and live.
have fun.


[sorry, im upset and rambling]

overwhelmed.

have you ever felt the weight of the world on your heart? like no one no matter what they do, can help you? its just nothing anybody else can fix. its something that you feel unhappy with and that you have to fix. one day you wake up saying, "what the hell am i doing?! is this where i want to be?!" and when you can tell someone exactly how you feel, you are frozen in fear and in sadness because you didn't know it was so much to bear until this exact moment.
its an overwhelming feeling, something that's been apart of you for such a long time but you didn't have time to feel it. you couldn't let yourself feel it. and now you realize that its the one feeling you just can't ignore.